It's getting harder everyday...

It's hard to be able to sit back and pretend I'm happy and have a boyfriend when I basically don't...:/ As I've stated before how are you suppose to be in a relationship with someone you don't even talk to. Its just complicated. I do love him and I get giggly whenever I think about him. :) But I feel like he's dumped me...even if it isn't by choice. That's just what feels like and I can't shake the feeling. I've tried talking to his step-dad who claims to "understand" and be "sorry", but that's a load of BULLSHIT. I don't want to break up with him but I think we're getting to that stage...I will try my best to make it a month...but that's all I can do. Then we can be on a break till he gets his shit together. I'll be here when he gets it right but until then   I need to be free. I don't have some other dude lined up but if someone came around I want to be free. End of story. I'd be nice if I could get this across to him but I really don't think Chuck gives him my messages, cuz like everyone else he's being an asshole. GRRRRRRR.
FML.


-Katherine Anne