Dying My Hair, or Just Dying

Life is sucking in a major way. Still no contact with the boyfriend. Best friend is too busy to be my best friend right now, but please leave a message after the beep. :/ I'm better off being alone forever, honestly. And when I talk to her about anything related to Noah she only makes it worse. She caused issues on both our first and second month anniversaries. Maybe that's my fault for only going to her with issues but she is always there for me. Well she use to be. I'm not sure what to do anymore...I don't like having to face my problems alone because I know exactly how that'll end up, but it seems trying to have someone help me makes things bad too. (Not as bad as they could be but still pretty damn bad.)


I feel like all I'm doing lately is wasting time...and I HATE wasting my time with a passion!!!!!
:( :(


-Kat