WOW!!

It has been a fucking lifetime since I've posted anything!!!! Well.....let's see I graduated. I went to prom. I lost two of my best friends. I have worked all summer. I'm still madly in love with my boyfriend and I'm leaving for two weeks to go to college.
That sums it up. Maybe I haven't updated because nothing tragic has happened in the past 4months. Just a bunch of regular old life. Its been fun, its been sad but I've gotten through it. I think I'll try to start posting again though.


So, Today is NOAH'S BIRTHDAY!!! :)
I surprised him with a sexy outfit. He looooooved it. :) Then his family and I went out to sushi. It was yummy in my tummy. But now that we've been back at the house Noah has been playing Call of Duty for like 3 fucking hours!! Its so annoying I hate video games. Its like "Dude, I'm about to leave and while I'm over you're playing games." But I'm trying not to hate because it is his birthday and he should be able to do whatever he wants. So I'm sitting here booooooooored as hell, like you have no idea. Hopefully He'll give up soon. :/


So MYY birthday is in a couple weeks. Very Exciting. The big 1-8! Also my last day of work for awhile will be on Wednesday. :/ I'ma miss my babies sooooooo much! <33 I've decided to work there for the rest of my life by the way. it should be fun. :)
I guess that's all for now.


- Katherine Anne

Hey Gang!

Wonderful wonderful wonderful, day/night yesterday/today. :P Spent it with my baaaby. 
He really loves me. Like really really does, if he didn't he wouldn't say what he says, I know it. It feels like we've been together for a lifetime instead of only 4months. It feels like our 6 months was years ago. But it hasn't even happened yet. I'm sure that we'll be together for a very very long time, I hope its for forever. I'll keep telling myself it'll be for forever too, but I won't be blindsided if it doesn't work.
I want to marry him, one day. :)

Not sure...

How I'm feeling right now...basically I can't wait for summer.
I'm sick of stupid rules. But in the summer there aren't any rules.
Except work your job and have fun.

I'm practically an adult, I don't feel the need to have rules.
Grr, if I brought it up though I'd never hear the end of it.
"I'm being ungrateful." No,they're being ridiculous.
Whatever. Just gonna get ready for work.

-Katherine Anne

SO FUCKING HAPPY

Noah makes me the happiest woman alive I swear. Yeah we toootally fight over the dumbest shit ever, but when we are together, everything is perfect. He is always able to make me laugh and smile. I just never thought one person could make me this happy for so long. He is just the cutest thing alive! And no he isn't romantic or a manly dude, but I don't care because I love him for what he is. He is mine. Not being with him isn't even an option.I don't see how I could have ever seen it as possible. And I'm not worried about making it while I go to college cuz we've gotten through this ridiculous "grounding" so I'm pretty sure we can get through college. That's probably the only good thing that has come of this, its preparation for the future.
That's all. :D :D :D :D


-Katherine Anne

Fighting...

..is never fun. But neither is keeping everything inside.
I have every right to be upset and I know it. But you're mad at me, so I'll say sorry, though it isn't my fault.
You simply misunderstood what I was saying and got pissed off. Making you mad kills me so I'll put aside whatever I have to, as long as you promise you're happy. Which everyone will tell me is stupid of me and I know it. But I don't care, I'll sacrifice my everything for you.




Would you do the same for me?
doubt it.


-Katherine Anne

:D

'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling.
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.


I love this song. :) Noah got his phone back so I'm a happy camper. Fighting with the friends is never good but it happens. We'll get passed it. I signed up for tanning. I'm so stoked. Stoked for prom and graduation and being free of everything. :)
That's all.


-Katherine Anne

like a week

Has gone by since my world went to pieces. But I know it will all be okay. I'll get through this and life will be grand. I need to get my car fixed but I'm not entirely sure how much more I'm going to need. I got to see Noah yesterday. Its as simple as this: I love him. :) I hate that he tickles me and does ridiculous voices. But those things do make me smile, he's always right about that. He makes me laugh and smile all the time. I can't wait till I can see him again, like officially. I want to spend forever with him. I got to nap in his arms while I was over there and I just love being able to do that. I'm geekin so hard while I'm typing this. :D 
I'm working on getting a second job this week. I'm looking at Taco Bell because they are a pretty much guarantee hire. I just hope they are alright with my only being able to work weekends.
Well later!


-Katherine Anne

Thank God For:

Calyx and Julia
Calyx's Mommy and Daddy
My Mommy
Taylor
Noah


I don't know where I'd be without you guys.
<3

WOW

Worst day ever. Ruined my car. Not getting another one. I hope I can make it through this.


Got to talk to Noah. I love him.

It's getting harder everyday...

It's hard to be able to sit back and pretend I'm happy and have a boyfriend when I basically don't...:/ As I've stated before how are you suppose to be in a relationship with someone you don't even talk to. Its just complicated. I do love him and I get giggly whenever I think about him. :) But I feel like he's dumped me...even if it isn't by choice. That's just what feels like and I can't shake the feeling. I've tried talking to his step-dad who claims to "understand" and be "sorry", but that's a load of BULLSHIT. I don't want to break up with him but I think we're getting to that stage...I will try my best to make it a month...but that's all I can do. Then we can be on a break till he gets his shit together. I'll be here when he gets it right but until then   I need to be free. I don't have some other dude lined up but if someone came around I want to be free. End of story. I'd be nice if I could get this across to him but I really don't think Chuck gives him my messages, cuz like everyone else he's being an asshole. GRRRRRRR.
FML.


-Katherine Anne

Giggle Bot

Today I've laughed a lot. I felt super cute in my teacher's outfit. Speaking of clothes......Alright just did my laundry. Where was I? Oh yeah I felt cute today. :) In English today we planned our camping trip for after graduation. I'm so excited!! Its gonna be a total blast. There is a lot of planning involved and money. Money is a big deal lately. Prom is coming up and that is gonna cost bank. I still have to sign up for tanning, buy shoes and accessories, and pay for hair and nails. My mom is thankfully covering the tickets and Noah's step dad is going to get his tux. I need to make a prom list and time line. I love organization. :) Also a possible trip to Kansas this summer, only for like a week though.  That ticket is about $400-500. So I basically need to work as much as possible to start saving up for all this crap. That means no more frivolous shopping. No eating out at all. I need to stay focused on my goal. Oh then I have to get alterations done. Even more money. But I can do this. Okay. Bye.


-Katherine Anne

Well Well Well

Today it is nice outside. I love being able to wear basket ball shorts. :)
I miss Noah, but what else is new. I feel like he's slowly falling off the face of my Earth. Because the way things are now with not being able to talk to him at all, it feels like we've broken up. You know how it is when you end it with someone and you just completely stop talking to them. That's what this feels like. I really don't think people comprehend. I'm basically living the single life. Like this is what life would be like if he broke up with me. I don't know, I don't want it to feel like this...but it does. There's nothing that can be done about it. I just have to wait, and wait, and wait. Wait, until his grades go up or until he's step father realizes he's being stupid. I will put up with this until report cards (April 16th)....but I think after that I have to be done. I can't wait around forever, for someone who I don't even get to speak to, ya know? It would feel like a waste of my time. I feel like a mega bitch for saying this, but its just how I feel!! HOW CAN YOU DATE SOMEONE YOU CAN'T TALK TO!? That isn't how life works.


-Katherine Anne

Dying My Hair, or Just Dying

Life is sucking in a major way. Still no contact with the boyfriend. Best friend is too busy to be my best friend right now, but please leave a message after the beep. :/ I'm better off being alone forever, honestly. And when I talk to her about anything related to Noah she only makes it worse. She caused issues on both our first and second month anniversaries. Maybe that's my fault for only going to her with issues but she is always there for me. Well she use to be. I'm not sure what to do anymore...I don't like having to face my problems alone because I know exactly how that'll end up, but it seems trying to have someone help me makes things bad too. (Not as bad as they could be but still pretty damn bad.)


I feel like all I'm doing lately is wasting time...and I HATE wasting my time with a passion!!!!!
:( :(


-Kat

It's been awhile

Lion King 2 Simba's Pride = love
It's so romantic. That sounds pathetic considering its about two lions. I guess I'm looking at a lot of stuff thinking its really romantic. I miss my Noah. He actually got grounded this Monday. Now its Thursday and I haven't talked to him. Its killing me. I was extremely sick yesterday...barfing everywhere and I just wanted my baby to make me feel better :/ But I'm not allowed to talk to him because he got bad grades. I'm confused as to why I need to be punished too. For a little while I thought it would be a good thing if he got grounded so that I could focus on school too but my mind is spent on him even more the usual.(Still not sure how that's possible) I love him so much. I feel like we do have something real. He means everything to me. I really don't need any other man to ever be in my life. I'm afraid that he'll be doing fine without me for these 3weeks-month, and when we finally get to be together again he'll leave me...I know he loves me, I just can't help but be paranoid. All good things must come to an end. Right?


BTW. I love walking around with out pants. I hate my dog for being a whiny bitch. I love the idea of VHS but they are such a pain to rewind. I feel like i could write on this blog forever and ever. :P My mom is forcing me to go to Longwood though I've decided that TCC is a better and smarter choice. So I'm pretty ticked at that. I get to start birth control after I have my next period. That should be a joy to have to remember. I haven't eaten in at least 36 hours...well I tried to eat some pretzels but they are floating in our sewage system right now. So I'm pretty much afraid to eat anything but I am hungry. At least being sick got me out of work and school for two days. I'm thinking about watching Titanic or Winnie the Pooh. Can't decide which. I need to dye my hair again. It looks brown so I disapprove. We finally got a Wii and a Wii Fit. Its so awesome. :) If I didn't feel like shit I'd be playing it right now. So I suppose I'm done rambling. I'll try to keep you posted on my life. :P


-Kat

Greetings the 16th of February

I HATE YOU!
Yes...today is THE day. Baby's gonna get his report card. Grr.
I'm going to miss him so much!!! :/ 
We can get through this though. I know it.


Okay...school. Bye.
-Kat


EDIT: He actually didn't. I got to spend the weekend of the 20th with him too. So lucky. :)

Happy Valentine's Day

Haven't posted in awhile, I've been busy. A lot of stuff has happened. Baby didn't get his report card so I got to see him this weekend. But not on our anniversary. I'm going to spend all of today with him. :) We're gonna hang out and then get sushi. I have a super cute outfit! I'm currently getting ready. I dyed my hair this like reddish color and I think I like it...its just I was rushed so its not perfect. I got it on the bathroom wall again my step dad is gonna be angry. Oh well. And currently I'm coughing up mucus left and right....which is never good. Its actually extremely gross, its all Noah's fault. :P Okay, Ima finish getting ready. Later!!
Hope your day is all you want it to be. <3


-Kat

GOOOD MORNING

:) I woke up in a good mood today. I'm not sure why exactly but I'm glad. I hope this weekend goes over well. Its my first Valentine's with a Valentine. :D Its exciting. Mmm sushi!

School is so lame, but I got some sweet pens that I get to use today. Yay for pens! :)

Okay, shoes and socks on! Peace Suckahs. :P

-Katie

First Fight

Yep. Not fist fight of course. Noah and I fought, he was being a jerk but so was I.

I'm extremely lucky he forgave me. I really do love this boy. :) I didn't get like any sleep Saturday night but I'm stoked I slept well last night. Ima need a nap before work though.

I hate school, I didn't want to miss any more days but I don't want to go either. I want the summer to come, or spring break. Well I'd love for some warm weather....holy crap! did Katie just say she wants warm weather, what is the world coming to? :P

Anyway gotta finish getting ready for school. B-T-W fight went over smoothly...we're all good in the hood. <3

-Katie

Back to school, back to school

Another exam today, another tomorrow, then it'll be the weekend. I WILL be seeing my baby this weekend. End of story. I'm not playing the trapped in the house game anymore.(Haha trapped in a closet XD)

Random: But I think I currently smell unusual. Not smelly, just not like Katie. :P

Anyway gotta eat some breakfast. Aren't I updating better!? :)

-Katie

Didn't work

....of course I talked to them. I love them.

side ways face.

So guess who got some Internet in her room....me! :) This is awesome, I'll probably be able to blog more now, and I'll never go downstairs to be with my family again. Hell, I might never even see my friends again. :P Not that anyone is being super friendly lately. Cassandra is hatin on my texting sills but a lot of the time I just don't feel like texting. My best friend and man are trapped together for this whole freakin weekend and I'm stuck at my house, try to tell me that isn't some bullshit. Neither of them are doing very well at texting me back either. Don't get me wrong I know nothing is going on but its not fair and its annoying. Its whatever, today I'm trying to ignore them both. Give me the strength to.

-Kat

Work

Always working. I don't mind, I love my kids. It just becomes work when I have to do it everyday. I wish I could just have an after school life again. Ya know? Maybe I'll take off a couple of days next month. One thing is for sure, I enjoy the money.

-Katherine Anne

I wish....

that I could post everyday.
that I didn't have to work everyday.
that I wasn't tired all the time.
that he would just talk to me.
that it was summer already.
that I didn't have homework.
that days could have 27 hours.
that I was perfect.

But what is wishing going to do for me? Nothing. I have to be patient, change it, or realize its not gonna happen. Maybe one of these days I'll meet a gene, hopefully by then I only have the impossible wishes left.

-Katie

2010!

Well well well, ain't life grand.
Christmas has came and went and now the year of my graduation is here. :)
I have found a job aaand a man! I'm suppose to start my training on the 11th and the 12th is our 1 month. Things couldn't be better. I'm just waiting for it to all crash and burn. I'm still struggling with the plans for my life. I'll deff be going to Longwood, there really isn't much to say about that. The question is what the hell am I gonna do there? I'm leaning towards nurse but some people can see me doing it and others can only see me being a teacher. So I really have no idea what to do. I think it's going to end up coming down to a money issue. Money makes the world go round ya know. Well I really don't know what else to say. I'll update when my life falls to pieces. :)

Later Hoes,
Katie ;)